Wearing it and happy
Today I'm wearing socks and sandals again because the weather's cool and it feels so good. In
combination with the cage, I don't really feel naked because everything except my butthole
isn't available. So I'm wearing it until November 10, now.
Back in the chastity cage again
After waking up very early with a big erection, the rest of today was spent in a haze
of arousal spent naked in socks and sandals and masturbating, aided
by a full dose of sildenafil. It was a great day, very high and blissed out. Finally I
realized the energy was fading and it was time to put on the chastity cage. I put the ring
on fully and masturbated, ending is a deep fulfilling orgasm, and then I took off the socks and
sandals. I had to wear just the ring
for while before my penis shrank enough to get the cage on.
"It" is awake again
I'm back from being dormant and am fully turned on. I masturbated and came
a week or so ago. The rule is that if I cum I'm obligated to wear the chastity cage,
but not necessarily immediately. All my pants are locked away until Tuesday and
I'm wearing socks and sandals, with the understanding that I have to wear them until I
put the cage on, even if I go out in public. I intend put on the ring fully, with my penis
inside it, then
masturbate and cum, and then immediaely put on the cage and lock it in place for two
weeks. I'm really excited to be back in training for how it feels to be a woman with only
getting fucked (and getting off visually on my feet) for sexual pleasure. The truth is I'm
becoming a total slut and can never get enough of it. The thought of the coming two weeks
of being caged and fucked is getting me so turned on I'm going to have trouble getting to
Longest caged time yet
I've just taken the cage off after wearing it continuously for twenty days, one
less than three weeks. I got dildo fucked a lot
, with 1,000 strokes per
day being the standard that is now expected when I'm caged. I've gone all my
life until now without being properly disciplined into fully accepting what it
means to be in the role of a woman. It doesn't need to be fulltime, but it
needs to continue until I become so hungry for the real thing that I go out
and find it.
When I'm wearing the cage, I don't want to take it off, but now
that it's off, I really don't want to put it back on soon. I expect to spend
some time not thinking about it all one way or the other, and "it" will rear its
head again soon enough. When it does, the new rule is that when the cage goes
on, it goes on for two weeks minimum.
400 hundred strokes after several days without
I had to miss a few days but today rolled the dice and got 400 strokes, the last 100 long
and slow. If my legs and breath didn't give out, I'm not sure I'd ever want to stop. I've
been wearing the chastity cage for seven days now and expect to take it off tomorrow
evening, making eight days. Funny thing is that now that I'm loving getting fucked so much,
I'm fine wearing the cage so that anal is the only sexual relief. It's possible there will be
another fucking later today.
Fucked 300 strokes and wanted more so I did another 300 later
The computer told me 300 strokes, so that's what I did. I may need to do more later. I'm
starting to enjoy getting fucked in a way I never did before, to the point I'm starting to
want it several times a day. Right now it would be fun to be living with somebody who wanted
to do it a lot
And I did it again, another 300 strokes, and it's even better; I may have to do it a
third time today.
Fucked 600 strokes
Today I started counting the strokes when I fuck myself, and in the future will have the
computer tell me before I start how many to do (at a minimum). The amounts vary between 100
and 1000. I was caged and got close to an anal orgasm looking at my left foot, feeling the
cage, and involuntarily gripping the dildo with my anal sphincter. It was delightful and
I hope a foretaste of what's in store. Without my penis available, I'm experiencing my
feet as supremely sexual.
I thought I was going out somewhere that I couldn't wear comfortably wear the cage, so I
took it off, and then later put it back on. I'm getting to where I can get my testicles
through the ring fairly easily, even when the scrotum skin is tight. I got big, wonderful
erections, first when I only had the ring around my balls, and then after I had gotten my
penis inside it, too. Those are so sweet and intense, like it's begging not to be put in
the cage. Then when the pins on the cage go into their holes on the ring and it's fully on,
there is a surge of arousal at knowing I'm going to be caged for several days at least.
What's happened since then
I gave up on the catheter for now because I realized there is a constriction just inside
that is going to require stretching and I don't have the tools to do that right now.
I've been able to wear the cage for one stretch of 14 days and another of 10 days. I've taken
it off mainly because I start to freak out a bit and need a break and a return to having
a penis I can enjoy. I'm wearing it as I write this and it's a part of my life now, but
how often and for how long I'll wear it is very fluid. I like how it transfers my sexual
interest to my feet and anus - which comes out as worshiping my feet and loving my dildo.
Today I fucked myself
for the first time in months, wearing the cage and socks and sandals. My feet were a bit
cold, and when I wear socks and sandals and the cage at the same time, I no longer have my
feet for a sexual focus; I'm naked but my penis is inaccessible and my feet are covered
and it feels like I'm not really naked - but I am. At thost times all I have for sexual
release my is backside, so I crave getting fucked.
Update and current status
Shortly after the below was written, the makeshift catheter began to irritate my urethra,
causing some mild bleeding and serious pain on urination. So I took everything out and let it
all settle down for a few days. Since the real catheter doesn't want to go in, I've backed off
until I can get some medical quality lube. Since then I've worn the cage for four straight
days with no problem, after which I took it off for a few days to see how that felt, because when I
first removed it my penis felt kind of foreign and I had a lot less interest in it than
usual. Now I'm at four days again and was planning to go a week, but it's so comfortable
and I'm liking how it feels so much, that I've decided to just keep wearing it indefinitely.
I get erections at various times, and having them so contained in the cage feels wonderful.
In addition, even though it feels comfortable, I am always aware of the pressure of the ring
that holds it on, to the point that sometimes it starts to feel orgasmic. I like that it
never lets me forget I'm caged and unable to function as a male.
This photo is what I see now when I look down. The ankle chain is a visible announcement
that I'm wearing the chastity cage, and it can't be unlocked until the key to the cage
padlock is. The tag says "Michelle", which is the feminine French version of my name and a
way for me to refer to my female side. Wearing it shows my male side is suppressed by the
cage, and the only way I can have any sexual activity is to be fucked - either by somebody
with a penis, or with a dildo. I used the dildo earlier today, and it was like a whole new
experience. All my visual sexual interest in my body is now focused on my feet and they
look beautiful and sexy. I'm in a foot fetish frenzy. Part of the time I was fucking myself
I was looking at photos
around me of my feet, and posing my feet to look sexual and worshiping them while being
fucked. It was heavenly.
Addendum: I've never felt this deeply erotic and put in my place
Seeing (and feeling) that catheter going into my penis captive in that cage and immobilizing
it, like a fish strung up on a line, is one of the most humiliating and deeply erotic
experiences I've ever had. My beloved and lively penis is reduced to a helpless piece of meat
that I can't even really touch and it turns me on like nothing else that I have to go around
with it inside this big piece of metal that's locked onto me. The message is clear: your male side is out of
commission and it's time to let the female side take over for a while.
On again and off again with the chastity cage
The last few days have been a series of attempts to get the cage situated so that it doesn't
fall off, my skin isn't turned back on itself, and there aren't other problems. After I found
the largest ring would not stay on, I tried the medium one, which was better, then the
smallest. I was pleased to find it stayed on, but the pressure was too much to sustain.
It made my penis get somewhat engorged, like wearing a cock ring, which put too much pressure
on it agains the bottom part of the cage, and there wasn't enough room for the skin of my
scrotum to lie at all flat, instead tightly folded against itself. Aside from the growing
discomfort, I was getting smelly and not able to clean the area well, and I knew from past
experience I was at a high risk of developing a fungal infestation.
So I took it off for about 24 hours before trying again. While I was caged I tried for a long
time to insert the 8mm catheter tube, but it would only barely go in, and I wound up pushing
the glans down into the cage, with the result that the first part of the urethra was sore and
a bit swollen. While it was off I tried inserting a piece of 5mm tubing, which I was able to
do without any great discomfort. I've managed to creat a (temporary) cather with it, as long
as the 8mm one, and found I can screw the end cap directly onto the plastic tubing. I made a
bulge near the end on the inside of the cage end, so it stays in place.
Now I'm wearing the medium ring again, and I've improvised a cord tied around my waist to keep
it from slipping down when I'm standing. I took viagra earlier and was having spells of being
super aroused. When I had the ring on, I got really hard and started edging while thinking
about it being so hard and free right before being caged again, this time catheterized, in
a short while. The thought of it being imprisoned with almost the only sensation being
pressed up against the rings, held in place with my balls in front and not able to be moved
much, really turns me on. I was able to insert the smaller tube, which holds my penis in
postion inside the cage and directs pee out the end hole, so it's completely inactivated now,
not usable for anything
except to experience being effectively emasculated and tortured by the sensations of being
caged and catheterized. Not only are there constant twinges of feeling from the tube as I
move, I'm always slightly aware of it being inside me.
My current plan, if all goes well, is to remain like this until Friday night or Saturday. It's
going to drive me out of my mind, wanting to hold and play with my penis while it's immobilized
in the cage.
A result of this is that my only source of sexual release now is being fucked, and that's just
what I need to bring out more of my female side. I need to use the dildo before I go out
Friday night to put me in the sexual mindset of a woman - I need to train myself to look at
men as possibly being someone who will fuck me.
My first day locked in a chastity cage
The cage arrived late yesterday (Saturday) and it took a while to get it all in order and on my
body. First off, I had taken viagra earlier and so was constantly erect, which doesn't work
with putting on the cage. My first attempt with the ring was with a smaller one and I wasn't
able to get everything through it. Finally got the largest ring in place around my genitals,
testicles first, then by waiting until I was mostly flaccid and pulling my penis through. It
was at that moment I realized I may be wearing this piece of metal for months.
Attempting to get the cage on got me all hard again, so I had to wait until I was soft and
small enough. Once it was in and the cage was locked in place, it became clear how totally I
have surrendered my genitals. The cage and ring make a rigid, somewhat heavy, unit that all
moves as one thing. My testicles are compressed by the position of the cage and the ring such
that they cannot slip past and escape the ring. I can touch my scrotum, which is pressed
against the bottom/back of the cage. I can touch the end of the glans by reaching through
the dome at the end of the cage, but that is all. I can't move my penis or interact with it
at all beyond that, not even to adjust its position in the cage, which, by the way, holds it
always in the same place in front of my body. There is absolutely no way I can grasp, squeeze,
or masturbate it. I can see but I can't caress. When I pee, I have to either sit, or
position the whole cage away from my body, and usually the stream comes out at an angle
or splatters. I'm totally arounsed and totally scared of what it will be like when I get
the catheter tube, which is big and will hold my penis in a fixed postion, making even
limited touching even more difficult. It will be like it's been removed from being a
functioning and highly valued part of my body to a useless piece of flesh strung up in a
cage. It won't even be involved in peeing - the pee will come out the hole on the end
of the cage.
Most of the time my penis only fills about half the length of the cage, but I've had frequent
attempted erections, and got big enough sometimes to fill all the way to the end. Then I can
squeeze the glans and create tantric energy, which I can also tap just from the confined
erection. Those caged erections feel really nice, by the way - I just can't do anythin with
them. The device is almost totally comfortable and the only negative is that, because I
have a droopy scrotum, it can slide well away from my body when I wear it standing and walk.
There's no danger of it sliding off directly, but my penis gets dangerously close to being able
to be pulled loose, which have no intention of doing. I don't think a smaller ring would fix
this - it's the droopy skin.
It's entirely possible I'll be wearing this for the rest of my life.
Wear a chastity cage instead of underwear with a skirt in public?
I came across this photo today and immediately got a raging erection. It was the urethral
tube with the fittings that did it. I realized this may be the perfect solution to wearing
a skirt in public with no underwear, and to the drops of urine that frequently spot a skirt.
The cage will prevent me from getting a visible erection while leaving me completely open to
being fucked. The tube can be plugged after peeing to prevent drips, and I can't see how I
won't be really aware of having that tube stuck down my penis and why I'm wearing it. I'm
having other ideas about it too, like having someone who wants me to wear it while they're
fucking me, or who has me wear it when I'm at home alone so I can't masturbate or play with
myself except when I'm with them. I'm also wondering if I will be able to ride my bike while
wearing it. I've already ordered it and the cage will be here tomorrow with the tube arriving
on Monday. Today I made a practice tube and inserted it without a problem, but it wasn't
like the real thing because I had to hold it in place with one hand all the time or it would
slide out. Wonder if I'll be able to sleep while wearing it.
Pledge of full-time nudity
I've realized I need to explicitly commit to this:
I hereby pledge and promise to live, to the greatest extent possible, fully naked, shaved, and
on display at all times as a public resource that can be viewed and touched without taboos
I'm not as sexual as I look LOL
I've been in a sexual low period for the last few weeks, and today it struck me how easily
someone could get the idea from this website that I go around turned on all the time. A nice
fantasy, but, no, most of the time I'm just living my life - only I'm naked all the time. But
in some kind of state of sexual ecstacy? Uh, no - however, feel free to imagine I do if you like the
on Viagra Plus Fucking Myself with the Dildo
Today I took sildenafil (generic Viagra) and did meditation practice along with masturbation
and guided visualization to reinforce that I am now living as a nonbinary man who wears
skirts, openly loves his body and particularly his genitals, and uses masturbation to improve
his life. I did almost all of the session dressed in sandals with a nice shirt and skirt with
no underwear, as
a way of reinforcing that I'll be living in such clothes and going out in them.
This went on for a couple of hours, during which it dawned on me that these sildenafil sessions
of a raging erection and high state of arousal for several hours are now probably a regular
part of my life. Most people have a partner; I don't, I just have me. So, while
much of the world was courting or having sex with a partner on Valentine's Day, I was having
sex with myself, and it was delightful and uplifting.
Then, while the drug was still active, I took an enema to clean my colon out - good practice for when I am going to get
fucked. I got aroused while doing it, partly from imagining a future in which doing it means
I'm going to be fucked. Once it came out clear and I was sure I was empty, I stuck the dildo
to a vertical surface, lotioned it thoroughly, and went to it. It was the best it's ever been,
and I never wanted it to stop. After a while my legs got tired and I lay down on my back and
continued. Nothing in my life has ever felt more "right". I kept on past the point at which
my arms and hands were worn out until I just couldn't do it any more. Had it been a real
person doing it, I'd have been happy to have it go on for hours. As it was, including rest
times, I did it for an hour.
I was simulating going out with a man who tells me to be ready an hour before time, then just
as I'm ready to go he fucks me for an hour fully dressed and tells any friends we meet that
he just fucked me. I want that to happen in my life, repeatedly.
Make no mistake, I *love* being fucked and when it finally starts to happen, I may become a
total slut and be totally turned on having everyone know it.
Today I practiced Tantric masturbation on sildenil (generic Viagra) for the first time. It was
For a long time I didn't need to put any attention on keeping my penis erect, it was going to
be rock hard for as long as the initial high lasted. The sensation just kept coming and
coming as I rode myself close to orgasm and then stopped and focused my attention on my heart
chakra. It was difficult to remain centered because it was so intense, and so I wasn't
gettting the maximum effect lest I let it slip into ejaculation, which would end it all.
It was a great opportunity work on training my attention, with a secondary goal of conditioning
myself to the reality of my naked and shaved body and my sexuality being documented here and
elsewhere on the Internet for anyone to see. Part of that was everyone knowing my genitals
are never going to be used for sex with someone else, so they are for me to enjoy freely
anytime I want. That, combined with my commitment to the practice of Tantric masturbation,
meant I felt an obligation to use the silednefil-fueled erection(s) to maximum effect lest I
let down the expectations of my readers. Surrendering to the sexual energy, worshiping my
genitals for all the joy they bring me and wanting them on display always, feeds the female
side of me, the desire to surrender to another man's penis deep inside me, fucking me until
he's satisfied, to dress myself in short sexy skirts and sandals so men will see me as a
sexual object, to go out with another man and feel like everyone who sees us knows he's
going to fuck me.
After the intial period of undeniable erection, there have followed longer and longer spells of
flacidity followed by strong erections. I'm feeling exhilirated and full of sexual energy that
I will tap and redirect around my body later as well as encourage me to live more openly as
a nonbinary man.
The pills are cheap and I expect this to become a somewhat regular event.
Nudism vs. Naturism
There is often some confusion between the concepts of nudism and naturism. Simply put,
naturism is a subset of nudism. Both involve choosing to live without clothing, but
naturism includes the idea that sexuality is not involved, that nudity is enjoyed purely for
the freedom to be one's natural self in the world. Nudism, however, is not so restrictive
and may involve one's sexuality being expressed while not wearing clothes.
This is why I
call myself "nudist", because I get great sexual pleasure from being and being seen naked -
and I have no shame about that. I do NOT intentionally impose my sexuality or nudity on
anyone who is not open to it, and I would be very uncomfortable with making someone else
uncomfortable with it. It's about enjoyment and pleasure, just as naturism is, but with
a wider scope. So please enjoy!